NEW MUSIC

Hey guys and gals, i just released a cool new tune, "The Blame". kinda sorta a remix/response back to yeezy. It took me so long to respond cuz i too, had to have my heartbroken lol.. always produces theeeee best work (for me).. i hope yall love it! Share it with everyone. From my heart to yours! http://youtu.be/X49B__IPwdE?list=UUAbxyrDhH6J5sIFqkXXsiwA

I AM....

 So,  I've been going back and forth about writing my feelings on this subject all day. 

I didn't know this person, this young woman personally, but as i sat and thought to myself i began to realize that i did know that girl. I knew her very well. She was me... She IS me. A young, black girl, smart, creative, someone with goals, flaws, dreams, and every day, real life issues. (family and personal struggles). Trying to find our place in this wolrd, while everything around us seems as if it's falling completely apart. I too, am a young woman who's dealt with the loss of a parent. I can say its thee hardest thing I've ever dealth with in my life and i'm still dealing with it. My mother was diagnosed with kideny failure when i was 6 years old and she passed away when i was 15 years old. To go/grow through life without a mother, your everything, you begin to feel like nothing. My darkest thoughts have never led me to taking my life away, but i was in a place of giving up. I was so lost and very alone. Everything around me was a dark place. I began to make horrible decisons. I wasn't meantally or emotionally healthy. That can also impact your life a great deal. I know how it feels to carry the weight of others and the weight of your world, all at the same time. I know how it feels to wake up broken and lost, but you have to be strong in public... for the public. I know how it feels to feel like you can't have one moment of weakness because of the "position" you hold in other people's lives. I know how it feels to feel like you have no one to run to, because the person you need the most is no longer here. My mother was my strength, my confidnce, my world, my safe place. When that goes, what do you have left? 

Yes, its true i didn't know Karyn Washington, but in so many ways, i am her.. A young girl struggling everyday with who she is, dealing with the loss of things and people, trying to rebuild with the pieces that are left of me. Though we are mourning the loss of a beautiful soul, lets keep in mind the bigger picture in all this, The message, there is strength is sharing, in letting go, in trusting, and in loving. Speak on your hurts and losses. It's ok to not be strong all day every day. It's ok to take a load off and not carry around these burdens. I learned that today, through Karyn's story. That it's ok. As bad as this news hurt me, it gave me courage to speak out. I now know that i wasn't the only one and i'll never be the only one. Use this to grow fearlessness, strength, self-love and courage. Know that we're one, with the same struggles. Its what we do with them, that makes the difference.

I AM....

Here.

Tonight, i've realized that i must take what i do, my ideas, everything more seriously. I am my own boss.. i am in control of all the things i want to see happen in my life and my career. Faith, Research and determination is gonna take me farther than i've ever imagined. I'm excited, I'm ready. I say what i want to see... For my life. I create my world!